Updaet. No srsly.

Got ill. Like, ill ill, 34 degrees C [bodytemp] pain and such. And gotta take antibiotics. And that WILL mess up my surgery on the 17th. Gah. Honestly now. Why? Like, why again?

Also: did you knew that the Germans have those funky marzipan sweets that are a mix or marzipan and oranges? Or yellowish marzipan? Or marzipan that looks like dinosaurs? *chews one*




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...but I'll take 'em tomorrow.

OKe, first thing goes to drachenmagier - you already KNOW so DO NOT PANIC xD, and if anything, contact via Skype should clear things.

Now, I'm BACK! Srsly, I NEEDED THE BREAK. First time outside my city for... umm... wow, over 20 months. And I think I saw all the ways locals can destroy a pre WW2 German cemetery. You'd think they'd forgive what happened to them after those, hmm something over 80 years since the end, but no! Well, happens...Anyway, I saw a bit of Ex-Eastern-Prussia hrhrhr

And pills... well, I had some rough time and I had what's called phantom pains [I think that's the name?] and each time I'd feel pain in my chest [you remember how I had my lung cut off?] I was having a PANIC!!! attack and was scared that I'll loose my other lung or end up in the hospital and stuff... In the end I went to the doctor and got some strong calming pills prescribed... later it turned out half of 'em are antidepressants but, heh, as long as it helps...

Anyway, the issue is, they were TOO GOOD. Ie. they worked, and work still and I AM CALM. I no longer suffer from chestpains, I am no longer afraid and even managed to get a minor surgery on the 17th of this month xD [at 11 PM, srsly, WTF] so I'll be more or less 'dead' for the rest of that week. All in all the pills made me a bit TOO content as I didn't do a thing for over 2 months! I simply COULDN'T GET MYSELF to work! My head was empty of ideas, etc, etc. Anyway, now I feel a bit better and I even managed to finish up some stuff...

So... umm.. Sorry for not replying and commenting? Well, I can only hope that I'll manage to put myself together from now... AH! UPDATES! FORGOT TO UPDATE MY GALLERY!!! *runs away*

Also(2) YAAY, KUMOASHI! YOU MISSED ME! *HUGS*

Oh hay there Mr Journal~! Wanna cookie?

OK, as some might've noticed I 'r as sane as a sack of doorknobs. Yeah. That's NOT GOOD. I be mostly tired, often unhappy about stuff etc. Oh... And NOW I have ALL the exams that I missed in summer because of my lungs being broken. Blah.

And I totally BLAME the MORPHINE, that was injected into my system 3 times a day for 2 weeks, for MOST of my current mental issues. That includes the time when I tried if red hot metal will make permanent scars on my arm. It didn't, btw. Had a red scar for a week, then it was a pus ridden red scar and after 2 more days it disappeared. Darn, I can't even hurt meself properly...

And yes, my comment\update\upload speed ish a killer, I know~!

Now, let's quote baron Vladimir Harkonnen:
"I'm alive! Alive!!! Mwahahahahaha!!!!"

Khem... I'm live an' kickin'!
An' missin bits of my left lung...

I had a pneumothorax - a sudden collapse of my left lung. After a week with 20cm plastic tube in my lung doctors decided that I need an operation; they removed parts of my left lung. After that [and sum' more time in the hospital] my lung finally began to heal. It wasn't nice, the painkillers I had to take were a lil' bit specific - morphine mostly [yaaay... welcome back to the 19th century]and ketonal. Side effects? Technically morphine's a hard drug. I took it for 2 weeks straight and it wasn't nice when I finally stopped takin' it. Blah! Anyways I'm mostly OK now, although it'll take about 3 months for me to recover. Oh, an I have to do those special exercises and wear bracelets that are about 1kg each.
And I have two f*** ugly scars. After the stitches were removed they're even uglier... I can see my insides in one of 'em... It's like someone had shot me from a matchlock musket and then hit me with a sword.
Did I mention that I won't be able to smoke? Like... ever?
And that also means NO ALCOHOL for the next few months....
Argh.
[darn... can't change the mood icon... I click it and there's no response... grr!]

And guys..... Thanks for all the comments on the journal! It's really nice to know that there are people out there that 're concerned about me health!

Hay folks~!

My left lung just collapsed. In an hour or so I'm going to the local hospital and... well... another operation for me... damn.

I'll be back in a week, or two, or... hell, as long as I'll be back it'll be OK, ne?

Wish me luck and let's hope these guys in th' hospital have good anaesthetics. Bye!

PS. It hurts...

OK, ol' doc said I need some time in a sanatory [yep, I'm cracked] to get better... Like, two weeks or sumfin... Ehh... Anyways I'm off for 2 weeks, hopefully there'll be internet :3 Bye everyone!

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